How quickly I’ve gone from clarity and presence to vagueness and distraction.

The emails.

The notifications.

The fluff.

The jargon.

The processes.

The outcomes.

The numbers.

The expectations.

The deliverables.

The deadlines.

The non-drama.

The shit chat.

The coldness.

The separation.

Between what I’m doing now and what I was doing before.

Between where I am now and where I was before.

Between how I feel now and how I felt before.

I want before.

I want 3 months ago.

I want 3 months from now.

I want clarity.

I want openness.

I want freedom.